May 2011
3 posts
Why is it so difficult to just be heard. Everyday this burden on my chest gets heavier and heavier. I know what I have to do I just have lost all of my strength. I pray things gets easier or that things begin to make sense again. Lies never get anyone far. They harm your ability to care about someone correctly. Why is it that people are afraid of the past? I mean it has already happened. We know...
I’m numb. I just want out. I can’t breathe. Feelings are your inner most thoughts and emotions. I try to embrace mine but I’m getting punished for it. Being alone is a fear but I’m not intimidated by my fears only cautious. Getting hurt seems to be a habit of mine. I thought He was it. I though He was the one that would never let me down. He wasn’t supposed to. I wish...
April 2011
14 posts
what to do while waiting out a tornado? why blog of course! all of a sudden i have become obsessed with divulging my thoughts and feelings and throwing it our for all of cyberspace to see. well maybe not all of cyberspace because of course not everyone well not even one person might want to read this. it helps to have a place to come and write out everything. Teachers say that if you write for ten...
How does one truly prepare for a torando if you...
Prayer. As i was watching the news about the weather and everyone was freaking out because we were supposedly ready to have a tornado any moment, I began to wonder, why do we have natural disasters? Is it God’s way of destroying sin? I think of a natural disaster as God’s way of saying “hey, look I am in control of this world.” just something to think about.
Love- It never feels like it works.
it hurts when the people you love hurt you. The pain becomes even stronger when they know they are hurting you and continue to do so. What has become of me? why have i let myself fall this deeply into path that i am so unaware of. This hurt is only continuing and yet i just keep dealing with it. Whys should I have to deal with the pain alone? Why should I even have to deal with the pain period....
will the madness ever end? will i ever be able to truly breathe without thinking of more schoolwork that i have yet to complete. as i write this i hear screaming from the stress of finals coming from our neighbors. summer? what’s that? i will never be able to fully enjoy my summer with school being a burden on my shoulders. will i ever learn to pass this on and give it all to the one who...
Music.
Many people say that music is the key to someone’s soul. At first, I completely disagreed. I never felt connected to music. I never felt its words and sounds whisper through my mind and touch my soul like is was supposed to do. That is until today. As I was preparing for my Chemistry test, I began to feel deep doubt like I wasn’t good enough to do well on it. I had been having issues...